Hmmmmm what started it this time…..
the stay at home order? the kids out of school and e-learning? the chaos at the grocery stores? being sick for 12 days? the LOUD maintenance on the house? the weather? the death of a family member? no sleep for 2 days?
so what sent me into a spiral of mania?
I’m over the stay at home order I know its for our own good but I’m still over it.
The kids being out of school and me trying to navigate two of them through e-learning
The fact that I have to go to multiple grocery stores to get the items on my list…in a mask
I was sick for 12 days…with no real diagnosis other than I didn’t have COVID
I love getting work done on the house but the constant banging is getting overwhelming
The weather could be SPRING anytime now….
The loss of a loved one and not being able to say goodbye
Oh and then no sleep for two days….
I called my dr. first thing this morning and he is going to increase my mood stabilizer but that will take a week to take effect….so now its just getting through the days until then. So forgive me for taking a “time-out” from reaching out because right now I need to practice good self care and get rest for my own mental health. I haven’t spiraled in several years and the last time I was manic it wasn’t good for anyone. Also please pray for my family as I have mentioned we lost a loved one, there is never a good time to loose someone but during a pandemic is really not a good time.